Soiled

I have hit rock bottom. Something happened yesterday and I am horrified. Almost speechless (but again, as I already said in another blog, one can't SAY you're speechless...it just doesn't work). My soul literally feels soiled to the point of annoyed revulsion. I'm spiraling out of control! I feel lost! Helpless!

I heard a song on the radio. Oh God. Oh God. I can't say it. I heard a John Mayer song. Oh please. Don't make me say it. Why! WHY! I heard a John Mayer song on the radio and...no! I can't do it! I CAN'T! I heard...a John Mayer song...on the radio...and I...ARRRRRRR!...I liked it! NOOOOO! It hurts! WHY! HELP MEEEEE!!!! And it's not even a clever song...he just says the same thing over and over again, something about "say what you need to say." HOW! How is it I like this song?! How do you solve a problem like Maria? Why must I be a teenager in love? Insert random lyrical question here!

The world no longer makes sense. John Mayer. Who am I??